2001-11-05 - 7:11 p.m.
i wrote this during bio:
my arch nemesis is trying to explain the krebs cycle. all i can think about is picking up and walking out. theres also the ben folds song looping in my brain, but its dave singing it, imitating bens voice. i like it better that way anyway.
i have decided that this is the worst part of my life, bio ap. i guess thats a really good thing, but, it sucks. i hate her, and i hate how this period makes me feel for the rest of the day. it makes my life feel so worthless. this hour is trite and rote, and i dont need it in my life.
okay end of transcription.
i hit another day-after doldrum. i think im gonna quit. it doesnt seem worth this shit. when you can pinpoint a cause of depression to one single activity, it would seem plausible to cut that activity out of your lifestyle. at least ok computer is helping. it has such a negative tone, but i guess it brings good feelings back to memory, and it makes me feel better.
anyway. mrs huddleston is getting fired. seth is my hero. i get to see my dave tommorow. i got my first paycheck today and im happy to report that i have 100 dollars in my pocket and a dog named woof. and 2.36 dollars in the bank. the bad part is my parents are making me pay for gas now that i have a job. i did not get a job to pay for gas, but now that i have one, i guess they find it convenient. oh well. i went to borders before my guitar lesson today to look at cds that i now have the capacity to purchase. i was disappointed that there was not one cd that i saw that i thought, "i must buy this, i cannot download it." i need to buy the new live dmb, but its 18 dollars on sale, and thats almost a fifth of my money... i cant handle that. im saving all my money for seattle. hell yeah. i still need a (or two) previously unheard cd for my trip. suggestions would be appreciated.
well, now i need to do my bio lab report. take care of yourselves.
"you look so tired and happy. bring down the government. they dont, they dont speak for us."
