2001-10-28 - 10:25 p.m.
agh im bored, and tired.
its been a pretty uneventful weekend, but nice, nonetheless. kinda weird, though... i dont know. last night was crazy. i actually had a lot of fun at scotts. yeah, we just made cattie dance for hours... but still, cattie is the coolest. at one point, scott said, "cat, youre the best toy i ever got." and i dont know why it hit me like it did, but, he was so right, and it was so nice to hear.
ive decided that i really, really want a cat next year. im hoping elise will comply. if not, its okay, elise, i can just play with cattie a lot... id just really like to have one with me.
god work is so fun. my coworkers are the best. i worked for 8 hours today and didnt mind one minute of it.
oh god, i booked my seattle trip tonight. i talked to my bro again, too. hes gonna take a day off work the day that i leave... im so happy. i am so content. there is nothing else that i need. i have perfect people around me, i am everything that i ever wanted to be, i have plans for my future, and im going to fucking seattle. its exactly what ive been needing, i just know it. i feel bad though, cause im leaving dave, and he thinks he will be bored without me... thank god hes so understanding. exs might have kicked and screamed. but anyway, this is just a me thing, that i sincerely need to do. i have never spent a real or pure minute with my brother. it has always been with the pretense of uncomfort and sentiments of restrictions with the parents around. its always been very uneasy. for once, we will get time, for ourselves, for each other. finally, i can be happy about that part of my life.
im going to bed kids. youve all been struggling, so i read, and know that you have all been in my thoughts, and especially, that im always around here somewhere. pleeease take care of yourselves, or let me do it. :)
gnight.
