2001-10-27 - 12:21 a.m.
so i just got my sat scores, and im very pleased with my improvement from the first test. however. i dont think that i can get into the honors program at belmont bc im not in the stupid "top ten percent..." and you know what? who would want to be in the fuckin top ten percent? who? jenny rost? ok, she can have it. i dont fucking care. i dont care at all about my grades anymore. they really make no difference to me. ive been stung by the "apathy bug" as well as everyone else. my grades already suck this quarter. im failing stat. and i dont fucking care. i would like to be in the honors program next year though, bc only there can you design your own major. it worries me that i might have to major in something that i might not give a damn about. this is my only doubt.
anyway, today was cool. tonight was insane. dave+me+parents+grandparents= UNCOMFORTABLE DINNER! at least the lasagna was good. then "my date seth" came to rescue us, and then we drove aimlessly and unsuccessfully around downtown looking for the muse... and blah blah stuff happened blah.
i didnt feel like i got enough of dave tonight. i guess cause dinner wasnt til 7, and we were with seth for a while... i need more dave... is something wrong with me? am i going to be miserable tommorow night at a dry party? i just want dave time, bwah!
for some reason, riding in his moms car tonight, i felt like we were so adult... or that it was some ridiculus premonition, or a glitch in the matrix. it was great though. adorable.
im bored of you, diary.
take care kids.
"by the bed, by the light that you read by, by the time that i get home to say goodnight. i need to see you again, on the dark side my friend." wilco.
