2001-10-26 - 10:32 p.m.
my cable modem is down, im assuming because of the massive storm we had tonight. my mom was freaking out. she gets all insane when storms come. somehow, i dont. i dont worry at all about tornados or anything. its probably horrible that im not more cautious, but i cant get worked up about that kind of stuff. the only thing that gave me a bit of a stomach ache was watching the news and seeing the front heading towards murfreesboro. everyone is fine, though. the sky is still brown like it does when tornados come, i kinda like it.... but anyway, all is well.
today was kinda weird. it was flex, so all of my classes were short, but i had to write two essays, and i basically wrote three because i wrote for a lot of the time in creative writing. the stuff in my free-writing notebook is just ridiculus. i read some things from a couple weeks ago and almost laughed. i write the superficial and melodramatic narratives and forever unread poems that i am too self concious to write in here. its kinda a nice outlet for those, though, and no one gets hurt.
after school, i felt kinda funny with no plans. i just never thought to make any. didnt get to talk to taka all day or i probably would have asked him to go somewhere with me. katie had a dentist appt and then had to work. i knew that deborah was going somewhere alone, and i couldnt really tell if it was a self-date (which i can completely understand), or if she wanted company. so i asked. after i asked, i realized that i had already eaten and didnt have any money, so it would probably be worthless for me to go and watch her eat. i want to do something with deborah sometime, though. just me and her. weve never really gotten to sit down and talk before, and i think that id like to do that. so, yes, maybe some other time. except, wait, right now she and i are at war. muppet he is not. if hes a muppet, then muppets are the hottest human-looking puppets ever. (by the way, beaker was actually always my favorite, coincidence?).
i thought of the best halloween costumes... but i dont think that we are gonna do it... cause we dont really want to go... im really um, thankful (?) to be invited and all... but neither of us really feel like, hmm, being social?
oh god these past two lunches have been insane. me+katie+seth=SEX TALK. we go on and on and use normally somewhat face-reddening words such as ejaculation over and over again. in a way, it feels like weve crossed some kind of line... in another, its overwhelmingly funny, quite informative, and extremely interesting.
i guess ill end with that.
"how do you call your loverboy?
oh, loverboy!
and if he doesnt answer?
loverboy...?
and if he STILL doesnt answer?
i simply say, baby. oh baby. my sweet baby. youre the one..."
i watched dirty dancing AGAIN today...
oh and by the way, in case you were wondering, i always eat ice cream when a loved one drowns.
take care kids.
