2001-10-24 - 10:26 p.m.
im feeling feverish again... it has something to do with my room, or something. i felt this way last night too. i hope its not the turpentine fumes making me insane.
so i want to cut my hair, alllll offfff. like. boy. im thinking. and i cant decide. i told dave that no ones opinion mattered but his, but still, i need some encouragement if im gonna do this, guys. if i did it, id do it myself, cause i dont want to trust anyone but myself with such a deed. i cut my hair a few weeks ago and it was a lot easier than i thought it would be. i should just do it, goddamnit.
oh god what am i gonna be for HOLLA-ween? shareen suggested the little bo peep costume, and she would be the sheep. i think its a great idea, personally. then, i told her about dave making the witty ja-rule reference, and she changed her mind completely and insisted that i should be j. lo. i can see it, i think i could do the j. lo, but dave doesnt reallly want to be ja-rule... so im stuck. i have no idea, and danas having a party on saturday that i have promised to attend. oh god, too much pressure. wow, im taking this way too seriously... anyway...
we were coming up with some pretty ridiculous ideas at lunch... like... that i should be sperm for halloween. cover myself in cetaphil face wash and just walk around... that was the most outrageous. it all started when i accused seth of being a boob guy, and he wouldnt fuckin admit it. so then i said he should be a boob for halloween bc he likes them so much. shareen and i also considered being fallopian tubes together... i can see it... can anyone see vanessa with a penis mask on? please? and seth is now going to be vagina nose. it should be incredible.
im writing an essay for a scholarship to be sent in by wednesday, and im ripping one off that i heard the other night at the college seminar. its not that bad. theyll never know...
i keep forgetting that i have to work tommorow, and thursday.... i already made plans and everything for thursday... god im retarded. i need to get into the work groove. tommorow will help, im sure. im kinda apprehensive about it, but at least tblank and matt will be there. at least... ill be fine, dont worry.
thats all, i really gotta get to bed.
gnight, take care kids. and smile.
