2001-10-23 - 4:58 p.m.
christmas christmas christmas! i want it soooo bad. i cant wait, all of a sudden. i realized that its only a couple months away, and now i cant seem to forget. christmas! are you people hearing me? its coming, goddamnit! halloween is coming too, and im not as excited as i should be bc i have no idea what to be. toooo much pressure. and then after halloween, thanksgiving, which really means nothing to me except seattle. scott called yesterday to set up the plans. make sure i was still planning on coming and all. i got even more excited. i talked to karen about shopping for my apartment at urban outfitters. shes the sweetest person in the world. shes cleaning out her closet, and she has a stack of clothes to go to the salvation army, a stack to sell, and A STACK FOR ME!! the best ones are for me!! shes giving me all of her fun little tshirts from california and stuff... god, i would go to seattle just for that. but yeah, when im there, theyre gonna sign for a rental car, so i can drive and go shopping and stuff when theyre busy or at work. and we might go to portland for t-giving dinner with one of their old friends from portland. god im so excited.
this weekend has been pretty great. getting to play house with dave yesterday was delightful. we cooked and danced and i painted and he played. we are so adorable. i felt like my mom and dad when we were cooking. he sat in the chair that my dad always does when he watches my mom cook. it was sorta like the twilight zone.
last night was definitely fun. scott and elise came to daves. it was great to get the chance to talk with elise about the apartment and stuff. i sorta wish that i could have been sober though. i feel like such a retard when im high, i cant even communicate. scott seems a little more comfortable around me, and i feel more comfortable around him. thats a relief, for me at least. for a while there it was kinda weird.
god we watched so much tv. so much tommy. ann margaret is undoubtedly clinically insane in it. the whole part where she was crying and the mascara was running down her face? and then the santa claus mask? and then the "im free!" scene where tommy runs in front of all of those backdrops? the wave? i really thought i was going to die.
i was hallucinating after i left. when i was driving, and when i got home, i kept on thinking that things were people... like my mailbox.... anyway. then i got to the rosarios, and mrs rosario made the unwise offer, "make yourself at home. theres plenty of snacks! help yourself!" i got a sleeve of ritz crackers and an enormous cup of white grape juice, took them to my room, and ate them while watching mtv in bed. I ATE THE ENTIRE SLEEVE. and the white grape complimented the salt so well. i then got 11 hours of sleep.
so today, as a result, im really hyper, but dazed. i have a lot of work to do but the idea isnt really materializing in my head. i finished my painting though. and it looks badass. it reminds me of scotts stuff... cartoony, except, mines a picasso rip-off. at any rate, im really happy with it.
ah thats all. take care kids.
