2001-10-11 - 11:03 p.m.
so i have a new best friend. his name is spidey, and hes a spider. a pretty spider. a small one, given, but enchanting nonetheless. hes been roaming around on my hands and arms for the past 3 hours, except when i left him here, on my keyboard while i showered. he waited for me, and now im back, so hes on my hands again. hes really nice...
i just got done filling out a scholarship application. there i had to list all of my honors and ap courses that i have taken in the past. it just hit me tonight that im probably not gonna get much money at all. although i have taken more advanced courses than they allowed space for in the scholarship application, my grades were extremely less than stellar. in fact, i didnt even list a couple because they were so bad. im really just hoping that i find a really obscure scholarship that no one else applies for, and so they have to give it to me. i need the money. money money money.
so katie and i have decided that we are going to try our recreational activities by ourselves someday. just me and her, because neither of us have ever just been with another girl. there is always a guy there. its not that it bothers me, im just curious what its like without boys... any girls out there wanna join us? you cant, if youre a boy, because, youre a boy, and it negates the whole idea, although you probably could, but no, we dont want you, so scat. just some day after school? a random weekday when we cant be with our boyfriends. come on, i know youre all just dying to come. kt and i are also forming a the donnas coverband. it will be dubbed the deborahs, out of love and respect for our dear friend deborah. if there are any girls out there that want to join (we arent really gonna do this, but you can tell us that you want to be in the deborahs too, and we can always talk about how we are going to do it but never do it) just let kt or i know! wed love for the deborahs to be more than 2 wannabe slut members. however, if your name is actually deborah (hypothetically), you are still invited to be in the band. we are not sticking to the procedure of the original the donnas in that respect. so welcome all girls, including deborahs.
so i need to admit something. when no ones looking, i try and do the bewitched lip twitch thing. is that stupid, that im kinda, practicing? for some reason, the ability to do the magical mouth twitch is something i aspire to be a master at. i used to want to when i was little, but id just cop out and do the nose wiggle that tabatha does...
oh god.
im going on a Date tommorow, with a capital d. i have to go home early though, since i have the sat on saturday... sat on sat. and then, fuckin jay farrar. it should be an interesting weekend.
to end, id like to mention deborah again. she wrote something in her diary tonight that was probably one of the best compliments ive ever recieved. the best ever, although not completely intentional, was, "you dont deserve an ugly bed." but, tonight proved to hold a definite front-runner. basically, i never want to be late to school again, because of her. i almost cried when i read that. you come in late to school, and you think that no one notices, or hope that they dont, and hope that you dont annoy them when you walk in... but someone does notice... and that means so much to me, honestly. yes its small, but its something that people dont normally express, and it made me so happy to read. thanks for caring, deborah. youre the greatest.
thats all. take care tonight.
