2001-10-10 - 10:44 p.m.
this will be quick, because i really shouldnt be writing in the first place, but, i am a diaryland addict.
i think im gonna start helping taka (my twin brother) with his school work. there is nothing that i want more from this school year than to graduate with taka. i will do anything to help. hes like, my best friend. hes gotta graduate... and then, mtsu? how awesome would that be?? oh oh taka.
god my printer is fucking up for the first time, um, ever. im good with printers, because our last one sucked really badly... but this, this is not working out. i need this for french tommorow, damnit.
so ive been thinking more about my major... and theres still like, 30 things that i think id enjoy majoring in. is it possible to have a major and 29 minors? who could resist? all my life, ive thought that i wanted to be an artist. i thought that i wanted to study art, learn enough about it and learn enough about myself to go into a field where i could apply it in a career. the problem is, i cant think of any careers that i would enjoy... there is a huge demand for graphic designers, but i dont want to spend my days in a cubicle in front of a computer screen. so my strongest points in school have always been in art and english. id like to be a writer, and english major, but i hate to study literature. id like to investigate philosophy, a lot more, and im pretty much set on a minor in that field. but what for a major? ideally, photography. and its so coincidental... all of these common interests and feelings that elise and i just keep on discovering... i read her diary and catch myself wondering if its me typing, sometimes... i would die to study photography. i didnt get enough last year. and i didnt get enough this summer. i want more more more. but i want to write! but i dont want to write FOR anyone. i want to write for myself, and take pictures for myself, and paint for myself... i dont want to try to sell any of my work, ever. i just want to be a mom, and creative. i think ive written that before. i want to read, and never stop. and i fuckin want to go to hairstyling school! and i want to be a motorcycle mechanic! and i want to travel, all over the place. heres what i think: i think id make a good photojournalist. that would be cool, if i worked for a decent paper, magazine, et al. id be a great interior designer. id be a so-so philosopher. id be a shitty painter, but id love doing it. and i think ill be a good mom... can you study mom? "so, what have you decided on for a major?" ... "mom."
i should do it.
i need a pet. when i get an appartment, the first thing im doing is adopting a cat (mona). and when i get my first house, the first think ill buy is a dog, ive already decided. i miss cattie. i want to see cattie this weekend.
gnight kids. take care.
