2001-09-19 - 10:32 p.m.
jeeze, four people on my buddy list have away messages. those things are retarded... and somehow im always so tempted to rightclick and read them... and i always do. one time, jamie reedys said, "wouldnt it be sad if all you had to do was look at peoples away messages?" it is sad, very sad.
im talking to katie, and we both agree that someone should definitely have a party for homecoming... so that we dont have to deal with the dance, you know... so... anyone out there wanna volunteer to host one? god. i wish i could have parties here. i wish my parents went out of town. i wish i had a party house. wah wah wahh.
so i went to psychotherapist guy today. and guy and i talked about good stuff. stuff that didnt make me cry. talked about the attacks. talked about my insane week last week. talked a lot about spirituality. he gave me a book, and another title to borrow from the ol library. i told him my beliefs, which i dont even think that ive ever written in here, even though its so simple, but anyway, i told him, and he was like, "wow, what an interesting perspective." i like the idea that he was a philosophy minor and had never came across anyone who thought like i do. i really like it. im not proud of myself, or proud to be different, i just thought it was cool. i like what i believe. i think its right! goddamnit!
well tommorow is the night for dave and ben [notice, dave comes first]. its thursday, and im done with my project, and all is well on the western front. alexis can smile, and know that her boyfriend is having a good night, instead of sneezing in his dorm.
ohh i cant wait to make takas bday present with katie. its gonna be so terrific. hes gonna laugh so hard.
well, i think thatll do me for tonight. instead of a song, though, these are some quotes from the book guy gave me today. see what you think [keeping in mind that zen buddhism is a much more ancient prophesy than christianity].
grace and truth came through jesus christ. - john 1.17; the body of the buddha is born of love, patience, gentleness, and truth. -vimalakirtinirdesha sutra 2
jesus knew all people and needed no one to testify about anyone; for he himself knew what was in everyone -john 2.24-25; he was an expert in knowing the thoughts and actions of living beings -vimalakirtinirdesha sutra 2
do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not let them be afraid. -john 14.27; may fear and dread not conquer me. - majjhima nikaya 6.8.
....somethings fishy.....
