2001-08-22 - 11:14 p.m.
so i cant write much because i promised myself i would go to sleep earlier tonight. mainly the thing of the day was going to the doctor.
ive been sick lately. not really sick, i just cant eat anymore. when i eat, i feel sick, therefore, i dont eat. i dont like feeling sick. easy as pie. she kept on insinuating that it was because of anxiety, and it damn well might be, but im sure as hell not gonna admit it, to her, with my mom in the room. it could very very easily be related to anxiety, but i hope not. well, i dont know what i hope, except that i can eat again soon. she put me on a daily 5 meal diet. so i have to eat breakfast {yuckkkk}, lunch, dinner, and two snacks between them every day. i have to take some prescription antacid, and, oh god, heres where it gets ugly... exercise... im gonna die. i cant excersize unless im forced to. my mom just joined the y though, so i might start going to a yoga class there. its all that im really interested in. machines never did anything for me, running is too boring, and im not in any sports to make me do either, so i dont. i might play lacross though, with heather and shareen... i dunno though...
okay, enough of that shit.
"i play my cards, the best i can. but i lose my luck when youre not here." dmb.
thats all. take care, please. goodnight.
