2001-08-20 - 11:15 p.m.
i thought that i had a way to start this situated in my head, but i guess not.
the most pressuring issue right now is this art. i started today, on basically the coolest project we were given. im painting a dish towel with my acrylics, cubist style [its the only way that i can accept still-life]. i was right, the paint did feel good in my hands, once it was there. i had to keep reminding myself to not be afraid of the paint, something i havent done since elementary school. maybe ive switched from right to left-brained, and thats why i cant fathom my work anymore. but it seems like in the past, i never had to forsee it, it just came. i have these drawings to do that id rather just vomit on a piece of paper and hand in. it might be more creative than what i come up with. ughhh inspiration! please!
i got my yearbook today, and goddamn, my boyfriend is hot. i had to walk around with the damn book after school and ogle and show him off with all the people that already agree with me on how hot he is. it was quite fun. shareen used to tell me that there were people that are hot, that you just get over, in time. there are other people that you are just continually amazed for years on how incredibly attractive they really are. we both agreed months and months and months ago that dave is the kind of hot that you just never get over. and its true. i still catch myself checking him out.
my back is killing me from these chairs, so im gonna lie down in the ol futon.
agh, i miss him
take care.
"if i was the sun way up there, id go with my love everywhere. ill be the moon when the sun go down, to let you know i'm still around. thats how strong my love is baby, thats how strong my love is." the rolling stones. i was thinking about how cool of wedding vows that song would be. cheesy, huh?
