2001-08-05 - 11:15 p.m.
i havent been in this strong of an elton john mood in months. all evening. all elton.
"boredoms a pastime that one soon acquired, where you get to the stage where youre not even tired. kicking your heels till the time comes around to pick up your bags and head out of town."
that would be so much more relevant if i got bored anymore. somehow, i dont, though. my mind stays occupied even when i have nothing to do. anyway.
im talking to seth now about my parents. i was talking to dave about it today as well. i dont know if i can even get into this again without crying. i came close today in the car with him. it just is so hard for me to live here anymore. im just so fuckin exhausted. exasperated. depressed. congested. lost. mad. on top of all of the anguish shes caused, shes also making me miss the (tentatively last) esposito/character show on friday, the bitch. I DONT EVEN WANT TO GO TO OHIO!!! THERE IS NOTHING FOR ME IN OHIO! I HATE OHIO! FUCK OHIO! ha, ok, calm down with the ohios, alexis.
wow, i just went an hour and a half without writing anything else in here. and now, im even more mad because there is no humanly way to sneak out of this house with an alarm system and screened-in windows.
oh god, im tired of you, diaryland. yeah, i have other things to write about and be happy about, but, eh, i dont feel like it. at least i can go to nashville shores tommorow! kickass. im so excited.
take care, and count the headlights on the highway. gnight.
