2001-08-03 - 12:06 a.m.
ohhh diary.... im so sick. i cant even sit up strait. my stomach hurts worse than i can remember it ever feeling. its felt this way for about 2 hours now... its the kind of stomach ache that makes your whole body tense up, therefore, i cant sleep. i just feel like crying.
i need daaaaaaaave here to hold me. im whining and i know it. but i do. nothing would help any more than his presence right now. i want my mom to leave me alone, and him to be here. oh god, this is hell.
its also the kind of tummy ache that when you smell any kind of scent or see any kind of food it makes you gag. that kind of tummy ache.
here are my other epiphanies for today:
1) when i die, i want to be remembered as, "like a bulldog."
2) i miss dancing, like with cheerleading, coreographed stuff. dont ask why.
3) i treasure takas friendship so much.
4) i feel bad for nick.
the nick thing is actually pretty bad. the guys have been treating him horribly lately. he wants to move back to chicago, and i dont blame him. im not too surprised as to what happened last night, but its really mean, nonetheless. i think some of those guys are just really insecure.
i might get to hang out with jay tommorow night. yay. lets hope i feel better.
gnight. take care of your tummies.
