2001-08-01 - 5:26 p.m.
i have some time, and im pissed that i have some time. i should be at daves right now, but instead, im waiting on my mom to come home from the grocery and fix dinner for me that she INSISTS on me eating. why doesnt she just ask if im gonna be eating at home? that way i dont feel guilty when i rush her. agh damn.
the craziest most nervewracking thing happened today. well, first, i applied for a job at the new carrabbas in cool springs. i want to be a waitress, and make lots of money like waitresses do. i applied, and they said that they were full, but that all of the hired people were not gonna show up because they had been hired weeks before, and no one was gonna wait for 5 weeks to start the job once the resteraunt had opened. so theyre calling me this week. good. now, i had some time before i was meeting dilley at the mall, so! i decided id drive around trying to think of other places to apply to waitress as well. i drove by raffertys, but remembered that eric (freshman year guy, eric) used to work there, and might still. so i drove on by, and went to j. alexanders. walked in, asked for an application, and before i could look up i hear, "no no no, shes not getting a job here. do NOT hire this girl." so obviously, i recognize the voice, and goddamnit, its eric. he works at fukin j. alexanders, not raffertys. hes laughing, and joking, of course. i swear, i about fell over. stress level went through the roof. i joked back and said that they could take their application back. he said no, and handed it back to me. i filled it out, and we talked. god. what a way to make a job application even more horrible than it already is. it was hot in there, i was sweating, he was joking, i was laughing, it was hell. so then im about to walk out and i hear him call my name. i turn around, and he says that they want to interview me. i have to wait some time before the manager can see me, so he stands, and we talk. he says he will put in a good word for me, i really doubt that he will. he brags some more about his appartment and new car. doesnt care to ask me how im doing though, typical. i seriously dont think that i could handle working with him. i mean, its worth a try, if im hired... but i dont know how long ill last. its just so emotionally taxing to be around him for any period of time. theres a few things that i wouldnt mind shoving in his face though, but he doesnt ask, but he might. thats my hope.
ok so i went to the mall with dilley. he got me a discount on some new birks. theyre in the mail. thank god, i needed them really badly. then we went and picked up taka. we had nowhere to go and tried calling everyone, but no one was home. so we went to target, and looked at clothes.
one day next year taka and i are gonna trade clothes and wear a completely opposite and obvious outfit from each others closet. shoes, hair, the works. i cant wait.
ok im going, because im gonna start dinner. i dont care that shes not back yet. im starting it.
