2001-07-27 - 1:16 a.m.
somehow i just knew that id "be fine." i have come to believe, over the years, that i have an impeccable intuition. i can always just feel that things are going to happen, especially when they are things that i dont want to happen. i can feel it when i am going to run into certain people at odd destinations. i can always tell if im being lied to, whether i say anything or not varies. ive also always thought that i not only have a working clock in my head, but also a perfect compass. i can always point in any desirable nautical direction. im good at guessing the time, even in the future, too. my parents and i used to have contests on our long trips to ohio where we would all make a guess as to what time we would be pulling into grandpa charlie and grandma bonnies driveway. its a freakin 8 hour drive, and twice, i came within 10 minutes. my parents never did as well. oh yeah, its because im god.
the intuition has bad effects too, though. since i have come to trust it so much, i convince myself of horrible scenerios, and therefore, i am extremely cautious, stressed, and worried more than not. the worst week of my life (april 2000) was a direct cause of my foolish presumptions and assumptions. they turned out to be wrong, and i had sickened myself for days by means of nerves.
finish later.
