2001-07-21 - 12:30 a.m.
wow, it turned out to be a pretty good day. havent had a pretty good day in a little while. felt nice, of course.
i was so happy to go to daves today and hold and be held on that couch. i think that we had both needed that, at least i really did. the comfort there is unimaginable in magnitude. i was glad to slake that need that had been itching at me for the past few days.
then, i was so happy to get to go out with shareen tonight. we didnt know what we were gonna do, we just knew that we had to get together... that the time had come. so she came over, and we sat and talked with my mom for a bit. oh yeah, poor things jaw is wired shut... she looks completely different. shit, shes lost 22 fuckin pounds. she looks older, prettier, much different. from the front, she basically looks exactly the same. from the side, i wouldnt recognize her. ok so anyway. we are leaving, and im like, "so have you eaten?" and we automatically bust out laughing. shes says that a milkshake sounds good, and i say that i want grilled cheese, so she suggests 5&diner. no objections here... so we go, and the hostess is like, "uh, are you gonna eat?" i find this insulting, although it is a very plausible question, considering ive been in there enough not eating. so i say, "um, yeah." and we ask for a table. somehow, time literally flies and we realize thta we had been in this booth for over two hours. so we humbly leave our money on the table and check out. we still have so much to discuss so we go to starbucks and sit there for about 3 hours. i couldnt believe how much we had to talk about, really. we went on and on and on. we relate so well, somehow. i could listen to her for hours. our lives are somewhat oddly parallel. maybe just our feelings. her and i react exactly the same way to things [except movies- love and basketball??? what the fuck...?]. maybe thats why we are so open. she knows everything about me, and i her. god she kicks my ass. i had a great time.
so tommorow theres an espo show, hell yeah. im so excited. god i get so excited about them... its insane. taka waka is coming with me, hell yeah, again. taka is also telling me about how his mom treats him... and i dont like it.
agh im sick of you diary, goodnight.
